update

So today I saw my OB/GYN for a post op check up.
The results from the autopsy were negative for any defects. That was both reassuring and disheartening. He believes there was a "cord accident". Genetic testing is still pending, but with the autopsy showing nothing unusual, likely it won't either.

He has given us the go ahead to try again after the first of the year, or after 2cycles. Either way, we are going to see how we are doing emotionally and if I am ready.

Chris is doing much better than I am. Emotionally I know he is gone, and that no baby can replace him, but it's just hard. I can say that I am doing better this week than last, so that is some progress.

Hugs to all, you are my girls, my love!

sarah