Picture of Andrew Jack, our Angel Baby

First, let me say, thank you ladies for your kind words of encouragement. These past 4 days have been the worst in my entire life.
On Thursday, November 20th,2008, our angel, Andrew Jack, was born. We decided that a standard delivery was most appropriate, as I did not want them to chop him him during a D&C. We wanted him whole. We wanted to hold him, to have him blessed and dedicated, and to say our goodbyes. The doctor admitted me to the hospital Tuesday night, the day we found out. I was started on medications (cytotec) to induce labor. Just after midnight, early Thursday morning, I started experiencing horrific pains, cramps, and contractions. The nurse encouraged me to have an epidural. I did, and was able to rest for about 2 hours more, when I was wakened by the feeling of blood on my leg. I called the nurse, she checked me, said I was dilated to 4cm (that's as far as I had to dilate to deliver him) and called the doctor. When she called the doctor, Chris called our pastor. They arrived at about the same time. I delivered Andrew Jack, then started to hemorrhage, and was rushed to the OR for a D&C (post delivery). The placenta had decided to not detach, so the doctor removed it. I requested to please not be "drugged" during the D&C, knowing that afterward, they would bring him to us and I didn't want to be "foggy". Really- I did want to be foggy- but I knew that it would be better for me to experience and remember everything.
Chris was an amazing support during everything. He was by my side nonstop. He cried with me, held me, told me it was ok. We grieved the loss of our baby. We are still grieving the loss.
I am attaching a picture of Andrew Jack. Please know that even though he looks small, he is beautiful in our eyes. He was about 16 1/2 weeks gestation. We do not know the cause of his demise, but are awaiting autopsy and genetic testing results. From the general appearance of him, nothing looks out of the ordinary.
He looks just like Chris, with Riley's nose.
He is our baby, he is in Heaven, we love him and miss him more than words can say.

all my love,
sarah